shakillah

2011-01-27T02:47:00.002+08:00

aku tkde keje, aku tgk friendster aku. HAHAHAHA!

lepas tu faj tompang happiness. hahaha.

haiyo.

i miss him, budak jepon.

2010-12-30T04:45:00.000+08:00

too much.

tat hurts me.

still, im standing watching you.

2010-12-27T04:32:00.000+08:00

i always wans things to be wat i wans it to be
i always wans things to happen like how i imagine

i always wans things to be good thou i know its bad

raden is off my life.gone, either for good or bad.

i always tot he is the one.

coz i promise to take care of him,always

it didnt happen, sadly.

i always says let the fate speak for itself. tats wen i did my biggest

mistake. i didnt look, didnt bother to find, and worst didnt even fyte for

my own happiness. there goes my life.

i'll still leave it to fate.

coz i trust in everything tats gonna happen.

2010-12-25T04:30:00.001+08:00

my blog is dusty.

god.

2010-12-02T11:25:00.002+08:00

things happen for a reason.

so many things happened in my life.

& im here, finding for a reason.

lately, i cant sleep well. sleep late at nite

& woke early in the morning. wenever mama bath rayan,

he will cry n doesnt wans to wear his clothes. so i have to wake up

JUST TO DRESS RAYAN UP.

n im all fatigue coz my cousin slept ovr my house lately.

making noise. so wenever i woke up n look in the mirror,

my face is like a mother of four children.

great~

but im happy my cousin is here. :)

good bye.

2010-11-30T19:06:00.001+08:00

i dont nid raden's replacement

much love.

stop adding me at fb.

not gonna accept anyone.

Evanescence - My immortal lyrics

2010-11-24T13:28:00.001+08:00

im strong

i kept telling myself im strong

but at the end of the day,

i curl up on my bed,

n cry till i fall asleep.

but at least i know. i survive the day light not thinking

how weak i am.

yet now, i know, i am still strong.

YOU DONT UNDERSTAND HOW I FELT BEING STUPID FOR

TRUSTING SO MUCH ON A GUY TAT DOESNT LOVE YOU

AFTER 4 MONTHS.

2010-11-23T12:33:00.002+08:00

how do u feel wen someone u has the whole heart for

changed

seldom msg

seldom call

lack of time

worst of all, LEAVES YOU.

no one is born perfect.

& tat is y i cried wen he walk away.

i aint gonna wait.

moved-on.

2010-11-15T03:45:00.005+08:00

ive been posting a very short post. haha. is like better not to

post anything. haha. but its okie. im on nite shift today.

best part,

there is only 8 patients with 4 nurses. baikkkk ke pahh ?

receive a msg for emma-sexy-butt. she making a date for us. err, okie. not exactly a date. its within the four of us. hopefully i can make it.

every day, i rejected friend request kat fb. surprisingly, some i used to reject/delete.

amaciam bole gini ????

my bbygal, ili, bdae is coming. wat shall i get for her ?

2010-11-14T00:27:00.002+08:00

out of 24hrs, i spend only 5 hours wit him .

2010-11-12T23:08:00.001+08:00

still strong

LOVE.

2010-11-10T20:24:00.001+08:00

my bdae 091190. meet ray n bbyg at bb. sentosa. train.

UNIVERSAL STUDIO.

tat is whr i njoy my bdae

2010-11-04T02:00:00.003+08:00

muke kecoh-kecoh raya. hahahaha!

mine. thanx

baby rayan admitted. FITS.

i ran from my house to pioneer mall clinic carrying rayan.

reach at the clinic, i shouted for help.

thou im a nurse, still, im very sad n helpless.

get well baby.

mataer aku kalau merayap, tk ingat ape tu matahari atau bulan.

benci~

2010-10-30T01:12:00.000+08:00

im deleting most of my past post

reason, a major one.

i dont want my past to be read.

and become a problem to my future.

thanx.

tis is the reason y im keeping tis blog private for so long.

2010-09-17T01:15:00.002+08:00

avalon, i am sooo not going. nite shift. fark !

party well babies.

i have a love.

name raden muhammad alfenddy.

he sux, he love, he is everything.

i ask someone bout ______ yst.

read his previous msg. haix.

2010-08-21T21:24:00.002+08:00

sape mau challenge blog sape paling banyak habok !!

haha!

lame pe tk update.

im attached.

and only close friends knows who is tat person.

emma, mak cik aku tersyg, dh jumpe. alhamdullilah, die suke.

hahahaha!

my boyfriend is hot. thou sometimes i know and i still eye on other guys,

for sure, he is still the hottest for me.

bye.

2010-08-05T13:13:00.002+08:00

my trumpeters . aww.... haha!

i love everything.

i love everyone.

tats all tat matter.

F R I D A Y

last time aku party before puasa!!!!

see ya ppl.

zouk/zirca. find me :)

2010-08-01T13:16:00.002+08:00

now, would you pls excuse me n get lose ?

supposedly, TODAY, to take our photos.

but as expected, for like again, DISSAPOINTMENT.

well, nvm. guess im used to tis. :)

no point pointing out ppl mistake n they wont learn from it n deny it.

but still im happy, i have my big bum wit me :)

i farking miss her.

2010-07-23T20:29:00.004+08:00

DELETED.
for a reason, or mayb thousands.

2010-07-14T19:51:00.002+08:00

hahahaha! BONUS is otw to my POSB bank !!!

bayek uhk !!!! singapore here i come !!

town bugis marina n mane2 yg ade shopping centre, get ready jek.

aku nk SERANG korang !!!

hahaha.

2010-07-11T01:11:00.002+08:00

life is a gift.

get it. use it. play wit it. like it. messed wit it.

and all you get is

YOURSELF :)

NOBODY will be bothered if you are in pain, happy, sad or watever.

so, simple say, just kip ur life save n nice.

which one will you choose?

2010-07-08T23:53:00.001+08:00

wats wrong wit life?

okie. not life,exactly.

so rephrase it.

WATS WRONG WIT ME?

2010-07-02T22:37:00.002+08:00

i may have thousands of reason to love you.

but i only nid one reason from you .

people always misjudge. cant deny, me too. honestly, misjudge

make someone look so ugly n bad eventhou she/he is a good

looking person. 20 years ive been living in tis world.

i only committed to love once or twice. humans always say

"i love you always"

"i tk kan mintak break"

"i akan syg you srg jek. tkde org lain bole gantikn you."

the one who says tis is stupid. n the one who trust tis phrases

ARE PLAIN STUPID.

humans always express love thru words. not heart. why?

ive been in and out of love. i may not haf lots of ex. but

i only nid one person to totally break tis heart of mine.

unfortunately, yes, there is tis guy. ive been waiting for him.

for him.

& for him.

i guess faj & emma could roughly gets who is tis guy. n yahh, ive

not moved on. i still wans him. 4 years. it goes all to the drain.

i always put the hope in my heart, saying he will come back. but wat

did i achieve tis 4 years. him happily wit his gf.

its very hard for me.

to forget you

to hate you

to meet you

to held on you

to even own you

all i could do is, wait n stalk you. each day, it just doubled up my pain.

each day, it just double up my tears.

& if you could just gif me one min, tat would b enough for me.

wat else could i ever ask for.

bcoz you make me stop from loving other guys.

thank you. i couldnt believe you are the reason to my best tears.

all the best in ur relationship.
i love you.

2010-06-30T20:57:00.003+08:00

MAJOR LAZER !!!!!

so who's the lucky bitch ??!!!!

yup. its him. be jealous. hahaha! okie, i knew, ppl been whinning

about me party-ing always. zouk la, zirca la, rebel la...

haha. just to inform you guys

WHY THE HELL MUST YOU EVEN BOTHER BOUT MY LIFE.

BE IN MY SHOE AND YOU WILL KNOW HOW IT FEELS

TO HAVE THE PARTY PPL TO BE UR FRIENDS & BEST FRIENDS!

emma, faj, kida, lulu. \m/ we party like its our own concert.

you losers, boo to yourself.

goodnite.

goodbye.

2010-06-29T20:51:00.002+08:00

LIFE

is great.

thou i doesnt have my LOVE.

thou i doesnt have RICHNESS.

thou i doesnt have BEAUTY.

thou i doesnt have FAME.

my life is simple.

if you could just be in my shoe,

u will know how much ive wen thru.

doesnt mean you are more older, tat doesnt mean u experience more.

it depends on how u bring urself up.

goodnite.

goodbye.

2010-06-24T22:29:00.002+08:00

you know, i always longed to be loved by a guy. i always wanted to be wit someone.
i always wanted to be hug wen im down. i always wanted to share my idiotic story.
i always wanted to lay on his shoulder n cry. i always wanted to be called beautiful
even wen i was drop dead ugly. i always wanted to be wit someone who appreaciates
every scolding n endure my nagging. ive always been. always~
but it never came. ppl says it will come one day. mayb. u never know.

life, is always a game. wen u lose, ppl will still cnue wit their games.

so better dont lose in life. so tat ppl wont forget u.

sometimes, i wonder, why do girls always bear the bad name when it comes to relationship?

is it true wen ppl says
"let go. if he is yours, he will come back. if he doesnt, he will never be yours"
wat if i let go? n he never come back? why in the first plc must i let go of him?

goodbye.

goodnite.

2010-06-17T13:47:00.003+08:00

lotsa things been happening. and i really mean it.

photoshoots. lepak. bugis. picnic. sheesha. shopping.

but the most happiest is tat im back wit my ex. not in the sense

of patched up. just tat we contact and going wit the flow.

he changed and has been nice towards me. everyday he has

been sending me to work even if im in the morning shift. im so

glad tat he is part of my life :)

and tis post specially to EMMA.

wat happened at club (160610) i totally terribly sorry. i knew

i was wrong.friends dont pull each other. i said i hate you. tat was wen i

was terribly angry. i hate it wen we fyte.

but i do know n i will always know, fyte brings us closer.

smpi beg duet hilang pon same2 -.- hahaha! but seriously, we cant fyte.

we ended up laughing at ppl. shit! i still cant

understand y for fucking four years we cant fyte.

hahaha! weird kan???? gosh~

wateva it is emma, im sorry.

pokoknye aku sorry uhk.

k pendek kate aku sorry.

yg penting aku sorry.

yg aku nk cakap is aku sorry.

okie dh. sikit2 jek. aku nk tido balek. bye!

2010-06-02T10:24:00.002+08:00

im fragile nowadays. dont know wats the reason. haix.

im lucky he is still patience wit me. ty so much. had a very

big fyte yst nite wit him. but settled it after 2hrs. meeting him today

after work. hopefully everything is smooth. :)

i got my money back!! baek ke pe!!!!

k bye. aku penat nk gi keje. can i dont go??

2010-05-31T12:29:00.003+08:00

something happen in my workplc. babe, pls tell us whr are you. dont

go missing out of sudden. even ur parents dont know whr are you. pls,

do come back. dont make everione worry.

tis month, I SPEND MORE DEN I SHOULD !!!! fark sia!

i hate it wen i spend more den i should. pfft! haiyo!

hmm. lack of sleep. haix~

MEDICAL COVER

saturday report at TTSH 345pm.

den proceed to medical cover site at 4pm. i was told to station

myself wit my grp in the middle of changi terminal, along the

road. each team consist of 1 driver,1 medic, i paramedic,1 rider.

den there will b 4 aetos mats/ppl stt wit us.1 will escort the ambulance to anywhr.

so i was like sleeping -_-" wen at 1am in the morning a call was activated.

kelam kabot aku pki vest n dudok kat passenger seat. haha!

den there is few other casualty. penat giler la actually. coz it was from

4pm till 10am the next morning. penat not bcoz of the work load.

its damn easy. the pay was bomb!! $12/$15 per hour.

hours = 18hrs

paid = $12 or $15. i cant remember actually
total = $216 ($12/hr) $270 ($15/hr)

sape tknk keje senang??? cume tiring coz kalau tkde casualty, you

b dead boring. nasib baik la rider aku n bdk2 aetos smue gerek2.

2010-05-24T20:12:00.002+08:00

yeah.. heard the truth boout my ex. dissapointing. but he shall hear

wat i did behind him. i'll guess he will be drop dead dissapointed. haha!

jyeah. play wit me. i'll play along. wrong person dude!

MAYB, 16th june 2010 supperclub. & i know who is going too.

weeeewwwwiiiiitt. jumpa disana.

♀ + ♂ = S E X

which part of it you ppl dont understand. ??? i'll have a private consultation

wit you :)

life has been up & down. okie, let me repeat or better, REPHRASE

my sentence. life HAS to be up & down. if you are always up, you wont

feel the distance and hurt during the fall. and if you are always down,

FARK YOUR MAMMA!! GET UR ASS WORKING, SHIT!!

i hope, gaji aku bnk!!!! bsok dok gaji aku. baek ke pe~~~~~!!!!!!!!!

abg aku nk back to piercing, adek aku nk back to piercing.

wahh~ tkpe2. korang due just wait and see. i'll be back!

thank you.

shakillah.

2010-05-18T20:32:00.002+08:00

faj, emma. nah ambek krg. gmbr krg dh kat sini. hahahaha!

alamak emma, i do love u. yes, i do. but somtimes i penat dgn

you bile you mabok. i btol2 sorry. kite break aite?

k diam!

im in love wit someone i shall not. haiz. com'on heart, change ur

feelings. pfft. im strong enough to pull myself. lately, i was cranky.

idk wats the reason. mayb, changes of hormones. haha! tk la.

thank you

shakillah

2010-05-15T23:16:00.002+08:00

IM HAVING FUN. :)

n mayb,

IM IN LOVE.

thank you.

shakillah

2010-05-11T22:30:00.002+08:00

one good thing bout tis blogger, we know who is reading our blog. :)

n yahh, to tat SOMEONE at my tag board, hi once again.

tot u wont read. anyway, kalau terasa,tats isnt my prob i guess. coz i didnt mention ur name.

nor did i say it was refering to you. mind me.

i still haf other friends :) i dont lose u.

coz we all humans know, ppl come and go. ryte ? so dont tell urself i lose you.

haha! well, if u see, i wont really reply to my tags.

im open to all comments. i dont nid anyone to lead my life.

even if its bad or good, i wont take it to the heart. the tagboard is there

for a purpose. i can choose not to put it up.

party again tmr. same ppl, same plc, same time.

n pls, dont bother to write ur fake name at my tagboard.

let me repeat again

i know who is reading. good thing bout blogger. :)

thank you

shakillah.

2010-05-10T03:59:00.003+08:00

[re-editted post]

yeah. i think i shall not write tat kind of post. im 20 n shall not dwell on

the past. or even worse LOVE STORY. hey com'on u sickos. singapore

is well educated country. ppl dont stand up for love. move on. loyalty sux.

no such thing till u are married. disagree? tats ur farking problem. go do ur

own blog. tis blog is under my email address. dont sibok2 nk benci2 ape yg aku

post. im sick n tired of all tis love. love just dont exist for me now. mayb nx year.

idk. i wan love(actually) but i hate to start anew. gosh ~ n to faj bebey, thanx.

THANX FOR CHOOSING FRIENDS OVER UR EX. AGAIN,N LIKE I REALLY

MEAN AGAIN, FRIENDSHIP ARE MUCH FORGIVING DEN RELATIONSHIP.

and i can bet u guys who leaves friends for a girl/guy, u suffered ALOT wen

u broke off. coz y? adults/matured ppl shall know why.

n like farking sake, relationship is not about controling someone's life. how does it

feels wen u control someone?? fun?? happy?? goddammit! n someone who sincerely

followed watever the gal/guy ask to do U ARE ONE FARKING COWDUNG! where

is ur life? under her/his voice???!!!

GOD GIF U LIFE FOR YOU TO LEAD A GOOD ONE.

NOT FOR SOMEONE TO TAKE OVER.

im sorry for tis bad post. yeah, i know i sux. i sux at everything.

say wateva u wan. but atleast, i dont control ppl. coz wen i do tat, i know

tat person suffers. n wen tat person suffers, ppl surrounding him/her

will look down on me. JUST LIKE HOW I LOOK DOWN ON YOU NOW.

n i know who has been reading my blog. guys and gals, AND EVEN YOU,

thank you for reading my piece of junk :)

& to jacko kwn kau.

hahahahaha! kepale hotak kau. step jacko.

padehal name ____________.

bye. pape tkmo call or msg. hp dh tk pki. thanx.

2010-05-08T22:56:00.002+08:00

fark yeah !!! tats STEVE AOKI !!!!!

morning shift

home,change

trained pasir ris

faj house coz she pestered me to come *idiot*

meet kida n mas @ tamp platform

bapok. i lioke ! "aku kat simei la bodoh, anjing"

tiong bahru emma

buy tix n stamp chop

mkn bunger king

izati n yana came

proceed zouk

drink !!!

dance bebey, dance bebey !!!!

sleep kida's crip 4:30 am

trained home .

i swear, we dance like there is no tomoro!

hell yahh!!!

steve aoki. watda ya expect!

next club 12th may. rebel/zirca.

see ya partay ppl!

thank you

shakillah.

2010-05-04T13:28:00.003+08:00

get it ?? ppffffttt !!

yesterday sheesha. wit this 3 again. hmm. i was posting bout him yesterday

n surprisingly he msged me at the nite itself. did he read my blog??

but its okie. as long as he msg me tats enough :)

many of my friends are wondering. why i kept spending time wit these two.

and why am i avoiding them. its not that im avoiding you all. but i faj n emma,

we are comfortable wit each other. we are promising each other something.

haiz. you all dont understand. never. this friendship is not for you all to understand.

its for me to feel them. whoever of you read tis, im sorry. i got my own rights to choose.

life is a game of choices.

n im trying very hard to fight for everithing. its not a good mnth to start with.

haiya~

but i always trust,

i always have hope n faith. tat never makes me fail to achieve something.

thank you.

shakillah

2010-05-03T23:47:00.002+08:00

its been a tiring day lately for me.

thinking of him. makes me feel so weak. why must you go?

haiz. u loved me for 3 damn farking years. u waited for me sincerely

for tis 3 years. but when i started to open my heart for you, you

wen missing. why? its the biggest qns tat i really nid the ans badly.

haiz.

see ladies, wen he is infront of you, you didnt see it clearly.

wen he is away, you kip finding for him. you kip searching.

you kip scolding him for going missing. n u kip on blaming him.

and tat is the part you shall call yourself an

I D I O T.

lately, been meeting faj n emma. tats all.

n yahh, today wen for teambuilding. ass~

thank you

shakillah.

2010-04-30T21:36:00.003+08:00

yey! aku dh recert/renew BCLS(basic cardiac life saving)....

aku pass!!!!!!! haha. die nye theory hardcore sia. susah nk mampos.

i think out of 20 ppl, 8 failed. n im the lucky one to pass :)

pandai anak tahir. *tepok tgn smue*

i spend the whole day kat NUH niari. from 8am till 5pm.

did all the 5 modules.

1) one man cpr

2) two man cpr

3) choking concious and uncouncious adult

4) choking concious and uncouncios infant

5) infant cpr

balek naik 198. tido mcm badak=emma(tapy aku lgik mulia). dh masok

int baru aku bgn. jln sorang2 kat jurong point. niari mcm bnk gituk

bdk2 kat jurong point. kenape ehk? ade pertemuan mat n minah ke?????

hmm. well, let it b.

bsok going emma house. no no. mitting her first. den go shopping for like again -_-

den go her house clean up. den tk tawu nk ikot emma n faj gi club ke tk. hmm.

tgk la ye....... aku keje uhk on sun. pfft.

okie la. aku nk tgk cartoon. njoy ur days while u are still alive.

stay out of fights. listen to mama aite :)

thank you

shakillah

2010-04-29T20:03:00.002+08:00

hey.

sometimes wen i think back in time, i wonder.

why i fell in love wit this guy.

why do i haf to be rebellious to this person.

why do i choose to b a nurse.

why do i waste my time sitting under bloks.

why do i find enemies.

there is too much of WHY'S in our life.

but to think of it again, tats how u lead ur life.

n tis is how i lead my life.

why u bother?

ryte ? :)

thank you.

shakillah

2010-04-28T22:42:00.003+08:00

trained harbour front.

meet emma, efah, boi, faj.

pizza hut.

hidong come.

wayang. SHUTTER ISLAND !!

lepak... !!!!!

home sweet home.

i had fun. really. swear. coz tis ppl,they came n never left.

thank you.

shakillah

2010-04-27T14:33:00.006+08:00

today, aku keluar.

nk gi vivo.

yg nmpk aku, tlg buat mcm tk nmpk.

haha! alaaa.

okie la.

pape nnt aku update.

kite share-share story la k ???

thank you.

shakillah.

2010-04-26T13:29:00.004+08:00

yesterday night shift. starts at 8pm till 8am. sblom tu keluar ngan emma

the pig. nk tawu ape kite buat??!!! SHOPPING UHK !!!!!!! gaji bomb dok tis mnth.

emma nye lgik mcm sial 2.3k++ . fark you la !!! jelous siak!!!!!

emma belik

1 dress from new look

2 tube dress from new look

gelang from forever 21

kasot charles & keith

beg charles & keith

aku belik

dua tube from new look

kasot from charles n keith

volcom slipper

2 necklace from forever 21

gelang from forever 21

1 ruffle jumpsuit

n sadly, we wanted to shop again but timing tk sempat.

both keje shift mlm. aku kan masok kol 8pm.. aku smpi keje kol 830pm!!

haha! shopping nye psl sanggop dtg keje lmbt.

tuesday keluar lgik. tgk wayang SHUTTER ISLAND. den mkn besar.

hahahaha! get ready shades uhk. step tgk tapy actually tutop mate. harap2

tk seram uhk. :) terserlah kekentalan aku. hahaha!

fark ! tgk gmbr abg aku! he wen phuket !!! tkpe2. august aku nye turn....!!!!!!!

ive cleared my baju2 yg aku dh tknk. pfft. all given to my kakak,

adek n some of my friends FOR FREE. haha! haiz. aku kasi pon tk gune.

ingatkn makin lapang cupboard aku. tapy disebaliknye. pfft!

mama, i nid a bigger cupboard !! pls ~

thank you.

shakillah

2010-04-20T11:06:00.002+08:00

i extend my leave for two more days. haha !

malas uhk nk dtg keje. boring ~ lgik pon census is low. no use kalau aku

datang keje. so just stick my butt kat rumah. haha ! mcm paham jek

stick my butt kat rumah. padehal smlm aku keluar. nari pon nk keluar.

sia2 jek ade leave tapy tk keluar. haha !

sat emma ajak party tapt aku cnnt make it !! aku keje mlm !! fark many2 !!

tkpe2.. its okie........... lain hari ade pe.

thank you

shakillah

2010-04-18T01:07:00.002+08:00

SHEESHA !!!

with faj emma n efah. haha ! smue lmbt. babi !!!

actually today tk buat bnk. meet kol 530pm. den proceed.

den gerak to bugis nye mcd. dudok kat luar ambek gmbr.

pfft. den story telling *ehemmmm*

den home. senang jek kan niari. haha!

tk bnk bende.

okie, aku bored giler.

bsok nk gi sentosa. yey !!!

nk pki ape ???? alaaaa... ni yg aku tk suke. last min plan.

k bye !

thank you

shakillah

2010-04-16T12:50:00.003+08:00

wahh. nari aku bgn siang ke pe.. hahaha!

kol 1130pagy dh consider siang to bgn on my off day.

weeewiiiit! :D

bgn jek standard la tros makan. haha! ape lgik.

smpi skrang pon blom mandi.
nari tkde plan dokkkkk! nk buat ape ehk kat rumah??

kire habok? alaaaa tk best.. ........

lipat kain? hmm.. aku benciiii !!

ntah la. main comp lgik baik. jdik paparazzi.

hahahaha! lets bloghopped ! susah tau nk tgk aku bloghop.

mane mau dpt ?? haha!

i cant b bothered wit other ppl life. pfft.

alamak, nnt si fahmy nk dtg rumah aku.

hanafee, kau tgk !! best buddy kau nk dtg rumah aku

stakat nk ambek kueh lopis. bpak die suroh bpak aku

buatkn. special request. swit ke pe bpak2 skrang !!!!

1 MORE WEEK TO GAJI !!!!

BAEK ~

sun ohh sun, jangan la dikau hujan.

sentosa, here i come ~

thank you

shakillah.

can someone hatetag me??

bored uhk. seumor hidop aku ade blog,

aku tk pernah kene hatetag. aku tgk bnk

blogger kene hatetag. best per....

ohh yahh. i dont haf a tagboard.

-_-"

2010-04-15T20:03:00.003+08:00

club wit faj emma n lulu.

REBEL / ZIRCA.

giler babi nye merepek.full of ketawe siak

fad tk habis2 ngan die punye belot.

faj tk habis2 ngan nk joget mcm die nye concert.

emma tk habis2 ngan die nye pekik2

HAHAHA! mlm giler babi siak.

half way meet up wit fyra n hafa.

sun sentosa!!

c ya ppl who going to sentosa on sun.

weeeewiiittt!

fiko ajak go sentosa on sat. pfft.

how to go?? im going on sun......

i really nid to go shopping. pfft.

:(
gaji. pls masok soon. ily money.

hanafee ajak aku masok this music thingy

aku lost gilerr siak.

sorry yer bangggg...

hahaha!

i always trust,

tat i can b a better person

DEN YOU.

baik killah. semangat jiwe rage. haha!

thank you

shakillah

2010-04-14T10:39:00.002+08:00

things got to b worsen once or twice in a month.

den u will start to think.

n there u go, wen u think,

u turn into a matured person.

i say THINK not REACT.

life been up n down nowadays.

but GOD knows how i handle things.

n i guess HE knows for every negative there is positive.

n tat is why

i got back my besties hanafee.

i got extra income.

i got my money back.

i got my party ppl to b back wit me.

i got new friends.

ive deactivated my fb. time for me to forget wat happen first.

im not running away. there is nothing tat i wanna run away from.

i love my life.

n i dare anione out dare to change the mindset.

thank you.

shakillah.

2010-04-11T14:01:00.000+08:00

swimming day!

goodbye.

2010-04-07T21:18:00.001+08:00

im sorry for being

~~EGO~~

my bad. now, i blog bout you.

hope you forgive me. :)

i know u will read my blog.

coz u are my bestest best friend.

hanafee, wa mintak maaf.

lu maafkn wa kan?

i promise i wont ask you to leave me again.

2010-03-31T22:37:00.002+08:00

wat is life without ray ban?

wat is life without ice cream. ohh well, my family is cool.

sat, meeting LOVE.

i think tats enough. no nid to define it more.

you know, LOVE.

haha! im in love. definition: ANDY. :)

shakillah. :)

2010-03-30T22:18:00.003+08:00

misses

loves

babes

bestest

hearts

thank you.

2010-03-29T19:38:00.002+08:00

BUSY WEEK!

haha. been spending time outside for the whole wk.

been meeting faj n efah most of the days.

wen henderson wave. wit efah faj didi n another 2 medic.

reach hm arnd 12am++.

den nx day mit efah n faj. go lepak umah faj den 9pm

go kallang kfc mkn. wen in drive thru. den mkn kat

satu tmpt. reach hm almost 1am.

den sat our respected n nicest sister bdae. nana!!!

it was her bdae. so didi fetched me under my void deck.

den faj n last efah. lincah2 carik bdae present nana.

sampai downtown, meet up wit niza n boify.

niza, aku tawu kau tgh baca ni.

NIZA,PRANGAI SECONDARY TKMO TUNJUKKN AKU K?

ahahahahaha! bdae kau get ready uhk k.

sun pulak go wlds reach hm about 11pm.

i really had fun tis wk. thou im damn fatigue coz

im working from 8am to 5pm. but still, n which

is the most important thing is

i njoy every bit n happy for myself.

2010-03-25T19:14:00.002+08:00

im busy,for a moment.

im sleeping,for a moment.

im happy,for a moment.

im sad for a moment.

but,i guess.

im always the same.

the shakillah tat you know.

lovers, ily.

2010-03-20T16:33:00.000+08:00

some friends

I COULDNT

lean on

tell my probs

make me smile

borrow his/her shoulder

some friends

JUST DONT

realise i nid them

knows i am in nid of help

feel the sadness in me

appreciate me

some friends just dont exist to stay long wit you.

friends, indeed.

im dissapointed wit ur words n attitude friend.

2010-03-18T12:05:00.006+08:00

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

2010-03-16T12:12:00.002+08:00

okie. aku tk tawu asl pagy2 bute aku bgn masok msn n fb.

mayb aku bored or aku tk tawu ape nk buat or

aku ni dh lame tk pki comp. hmm.

smlm gerek. window shop wit gf juminani. haha! klakar giler.

dont worry babe. 25th kite shop giler babi k. lurp u!!!!

guys gals lesbos gays.

pls stop asking me out for club.

not interested nowadays. but im going on the 20th

with best girls efah n ___. k. stop there. i wont go animore.

a n d y, ily k?

see, ive moved on. with a rich n hansome guy.

chinese~

so difficult to find a rich malay.

do i have to gif you a REASON to love you?

2010-03-12T09:14:00.003+08:00

hi ^_^ meet my family.

smlm beg aku jatoh bile nk keluar dari bus.

***cair*** malu ke tk ehk? actually tk. cume mcm pelik.

aku nie actually tawu pegang beg ke tk??

hanafee, i am soooo sorry for going missing.

wa bz uhk gang. i will find one day okie.

we play puzzle again *winkx*

CINTA CINTA CINTA . .

2010-03-11T13:10:00.002+08:00

Almarhum Sheik Mohammed Sayyid Tantawi telah meninggal dunia

di Riyadh, Saudi Arabia.

Almarhum adalah seorang Imam yg terhormat Al-Azhar Mosque and

Grand Sheikh of Al-Azhar University. Makam nya terletak di

Medina di mana makam Nabi Mohammad berada.

Moga-mogahan ALLAH merahmati roh Almarhum dan

meletaknya bersama nabi-nabi, malaikat,

Siddiqin wa Shuhadah dan Sholihin.

AL-FATEHA.

2010-03-10T18:35:00.002+08:00

wahh. saye skrang bz women uhk. haha.

goodbye lovers.

2010-03-08T09:23:00.004+08:00

me : sister, u scared of Cockroaches?

sister : yahh, of coz!!!!

me : there is one under ur table.

sister : reallie???!! no joke???

me : yahh.

sister : shakillah !! realli??!! pls dont prank me. not a joke ryte?

me : sister, its not april fool.

sister : omg omg!

me : see. i dont lie. :)

gerek kn dpt sister(nurse manager) mcm ni.

cek bz nohh. apa-apa nnt cek update lgik.

hang tunggu sat lagik. kalau hang tunggu, cek syg

sama hang.. lagu ni la cek namekn JIWE.

haha!

2010-03-04T15:55:00.003+08:00

situation getting worse. haix. n i admit im trying every

best to b happy. two bad news in a day. gosh. wat a bomb.

reach work:

j : hi killah

me : hie.

j : u are not okie. definitely.

me : whr got?! i am okie. u r sick j.

j : okie. up to u killah.

moment later.

me : yah yah im not okie.

j : i know it the moment u says hi.

me : i hate tis feeling. i hate tis situation.

j : we will talk bout it. okie. stay pretty n smile always.

somebody, pls. tell me. wats the use of giving ur fullest trust

to someone eventhou u know he doesnt worth it but yet again

wen he hurt u time and again, u r damn weak n drop dead

crying of being stupid. but deep inside, u still wans him. loves him.

y do i have to feel tis way?

i gif up. on love. on guys. ON YOU!

you simply broke my trust n my heart. for like AGAIN.

2010-03-01T13:00:00.003+08:00

dissapointed . angry . frustrated . annoyed . digusted.

sad . irritated . rage . give up . unhappy. HATE.

WIT UR ATTITUDE !!!

shall i cry now? yes.

reason : i gif my trust to the wrong person.

n my trust couldnt b bought. yet u sold it away just like tat.

2010-02-28T19:37:00.002+08:00

photos above were taken back at chalet.

*muke ade seeennnnyyyyyyuuummmmm*

wat shall i post? ohh yahh. im olreadi posting something. haha!

one day, was sitting wit my friend. suddenly her minah friend

came along. convo :

kwn aku : killah, nie shireen. panggil jepon.

aku : hie *wide smile*

jepon : kau nk ikot gi minom? *muke stepping longkang basi*

kwn aku : tk uhk. aku tk minum.

jepon : ikot jek la. asl? kau takot?? mataer aku somebody pe..

aku : mataer aku nobody. kirim slm somebody k.

jepon : kau ape hal? aku ade hal ngan kau?

aku : tk. cume care kau buat smue org ketawe.

jepon : hidong aku merah pe?!

aku : tk. cume otak kau kuning. hati kau hitam.
jepon : beboal konek.

aku : beboal konek tkpe. jgn mcm kau, isap konek.

kwn aku : hahahahahha! btol3

she eventually walk away UNHAPPILY. haha.

do i look as if i like fvcking care bout ur SOMEBODY??

dont talk nonsence. first impression is always important.

ALWAYS! no matter how your character, ppl always look

at the outside first.

CARIK JODOH.

2010-02-26T20:55:00.003+08:00

chalet was superb!!!!

thanx to those who are involve. & to those who

came. especially the HOPE ambulance guys n their big boss.

thank you so much.

im still young n still enjoying every min of my

S I N G L E H O O D.

yey!

2010-02-25T12:01:00.004+08:00

FLOWER POMPIPI---> says:
oit
shakillah says:
yes sir! haha
k kental haha
FLOWER POMPIPI---> says:
tak ku tak kata. kul brapa nanti nak gerak
shakillah says:
skrang aku tgh gerak.haha
tk la. kol brape kin bole ready?
FLOWER POMPIPI---> says:
kul 1 kau mik aku ok?
shakillah says:
k.kau nk aku bwk motor ke kereta?
FLOWER POMPIPI---> says:
kreta ar. zaman mtr dah bis
shakillah says:
k set.
FLOWER POMPIPI---> says:
on ar
shakillah says:
kau nari sleep over?
FLOWER POMPIPI---> says:
yup. kau?
shakillah says:
yup :)

off to my chalet. bye bebey! lurp u all.

overstaying there. pape lu org picit gue k.

haha!

my sister n bro ^_^ my influence *kening naik2*

2010-02-24T13:09:00.002+08:00

nari chalet tmpt keje aku!!!!!

happy ke pe?!!?!!?!?! bdk2 HOPE ambulance all coming.

but tmr. tmr is the bbq thingy. hope tk hujan *praying hard*

ppl lie for a reason.

but YOU. you lie for thousands of reasons!

im clever enough to go. u r stupid enough to beg.

i wash my hands off you.

2010-02-23T22:24:00.005+08:00

shakillah says:
more to mcm kene sampok
E M M A Cherry Cherry Boom Boom. says:
HAHAHA sampok dpt duit eyy..
shakillah says:
kau try act macam anjing sawan kat bank.
pastu kau tgk kau dpt ape? hahahaha
E M M A Cherry Cherry Boom Boom. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH CB!
shakillah says:
die bapok ke tk nie? atau pompan asli?
E M M A Cherry Cherry Boom Boom. says:
HAHAHA!! CB!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JVBtJCPiXSc&feature=related
shakillah says:
err.. cb = gal. so pompan asli la nie
E M M A Cherry Cherry Boom Boom. says:
ni bodoh.. seluar dlm itam..
HAHAHA org main tabla.. tahn steam jek..

shakillah says:
otak mati siak. g-string colour hitam.
okie. aku steam!!!
hahahahahahaha
E M M A Cherry Cherry Boom Boom. says:
aku tkley angkat sial..
shakillah says:
joget die name ape uhk? mau blaja pe joget die?
E M M A Cherry Cherry Boom Boom. says:
GEBOY
shakillah says:
pastu ramai2 uhk joget kat club. tk kene mintak tendang dh cukop
haha

go youtube, type tis Dangdut geboy super hot

we tok dirty

we think dirty

we say dirty

we r all dirty

but always

clean at true friendship.

tats where many ppl nowadays lose out.

2010-02-22T20:07:00.003+08:00

i LOVE orthopaedic D&D.

huhu! but left early to follow fatimah home. n meet up

wit fiko. haha! tat bacen. suke hantar org balek.

wahh. so happy with life ryte now. like i always says.

im happy, no matter how much u wans me to breaks down.

nothing can take my happiness. unless u go to bomoh -_-"

haha. k diam. but seriously, im happy. wit the ppl who

shower me wit their love.

thank you

hanafeehudasalmahzimahfatimahkakfaridahhaziqroy

aminhadysofianefahmelrajahfiko

without you, there is no meaning to a smile.

tis is wat GOD gif me,

STRENGTH & COURAGE.

to move forward, without ani reason of regrets.

im not a winner, just a suceeder in my life.

2010-02-19T01:09:00.006+08:00

T. O. D. A. Y.
* slept till 2 pm. agil wakes me up. banging my door
like one crazy apek. just bcoz he wans USB -_-"

* mkn. mengumpat ngan mama. on comp.

fb(now getting sucker).
msn. chit chat chot. msg kak huda. salmah call.

* siaping. boon lay shopping centre with kak huda.

* bus-ed to work plc. arrive 2 hours earlier. DAMN FARKING
EARLY. haha!

* 8pm work.

* now nothing better to do. hanafee wont chat wit me. hahaha!
he is not agreeable of the piercing thingy.

ORTHOPAEDIC DINNER & DANCE IS TODAY

DATE: 19 FEBRUARY 2010!!!!

LOCATION: NUS ALUMNI

THEME: CASINO

TIME: 7PM

ohh great. im rushing for time. balek rumah tido tros
kene bgn siap2 go D&D. grrr.............
ohh yahh, wat shall i wear?
pfft.

2010-02-18T14:53:00.004+08:00

hi! meet minah. her long name is Aminah

^_^ hahahahaha! joking. she is my senior collegue.

her name is kak huda. n guess how many children

she haf??? FOUR!!!! four children. n she is only 23!!!!

imagine how strong is she.!!!!! haha. proud of her.

smalam nite shift paling slack gile babi.

apiz dtg tmpt keje den lepak. haha! relek aje kan?

huahuahua! den otf ngan wazee plak sampai kol 530pagy.

nari nite again!! huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu!

" eh hi kamu. dengarin sini ya.

gue suda maju ke hadapan.

elu tidak perlu tahu kehidopan gue.

gue capek sama elu.

pokoknya disini, elu laki-laki tidak siuman.

gue benci sama elu. "

LIKE I TOLD YOU, i am happy wit friends. if you can gif me

the same happiness like them, den you are welcome to my heart.

but for now, you are still crawling. forget it k baby? haha!

H A N A F E E ! ! !

suke bace blog orang?? hahaha! btw,hilang kemane??!!!

mlm main puzzle uhk!!!! i wanna disturb you again!

hahahaha! k bye ~~cheater!~~

haha!

i love my friends.

i miss my friends.

i heart my friends.

nothing, & i mean NOTHING can ever change that.

2010-02-17T14:41:00.004+08:00

mak aku kemas bilik aku = aku happy.

she opens my receipts box = she gets shock of her life.

haha! she was so surprise to see all my receipts.

quoted one of her sentence

" ape kau buat dgn slipper which cost you $110???? "

n i reply

" oh, i use tat to show off. haha! tkla. "

nite shift bebey!

tc children. mama gonna miss ya. haha!

2010-02-16T00:23:00.001+08:00

im still alive n smilling.

haha! okie. jking.

im still awake. AT TIS HOUR!

2010-02-15T22:01:00.004+08:00

moving on is easier den being in love.

true or not true.

up to urself. the results will just show how strong you are.

:) & to b honest, im moving on. faster den u can ever think.

coz every bustered, there is a revenge.

im out. chatting wit bestie hanafee. bye!

&&& adi, ive deleted everithing bout u.

from cyber world to my heart. EVERITHING.!

all the post bout you has been editted. :)

btw,

HI HANAFEE!!!!

hahahaha

2010-02-14T10:00:00.001+08:00

thanx dude.

you are the BEST best friend tat ive ever got.

the only guy who loves to say KEPALE HOTAK to me.

hahahahaha! last long dude!

well, ive moved on.

im happy tis way.

no more adi, hady or whoever.

single life got no attachment.

single life has no probation.

n best of all,

single life has no regrets.

2010-02-13T13:55:00.002+08:00

few days back, he sent me tis msg

" Go listen to MJ12! the song for u bby! "

the song : DOWN.

how swit. but now, i ask him to listen to tis song

PROMISE IN THE DARK.

thankyoulove.

Can't count on you most of all when I really need it
It's the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings
The more I try, the more I'm starting to see it
This can't work anymore, than you believe it
Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot I've given every breath I've got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe
And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it eq, and it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me
And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it eq, and it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me
Listen
I just don't know what the problem is, what the deal is
Was I there too much, did I move too fast, I couldn't see it?
All these promises are probably how you deal with it
I'm tired of hearing you say your innocent
Don't think I forgot
Because I really didn't care if you're lying a lot
I've given every breath I've got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe
We all make mistakes
Sometimes we do desperate things
What does it prove? NOTHING
And you never do nothing wrong
Then what took you so long, took you so long
Cuz I keep, keep hanging on, keep, keep hanging on
So don't promise me

2010-02-12T22:09:00.001+08:00

i hate guys

who cant even face me.

who cant even tells me the truth.

who cant even make the decision.

who cant even make me feel his warmth.

who cant even feel my existence.

who cant even msg me once in a day.

who cant even see tat im loving him each moment.

who cant even sense tat im missing him.

who cant even tells tat im the only love he wans.

who cant even says a proper I LOVE YOU.

y me?

y you?

y us?

~~Berikanlah daku peluang hanya sekali lagi~~

~~Senyumanmulah menjadi penawar hati~~

~~Melutut merayu... kau nyawaku~~

tat sentence, no such meaning for me.

sorrie. i hate love. i love single.

i just lost three guys in a straight one day!

i hit tat record. how romantic.

2010-02-11T18:10:00.001+08:00

uncle john driver = vomitting day!!

i miss *insert name*.

badly. seriously. truthfully. sincerely. honestly.
:'(

again, im heartbroken.

im eating your beautiful words.

but didnt expect it was a poison.

how surprising.

thank you *insert name*. for the short love.

period of flowers,i guess.

u didnt know, a moment of you is enough to make a love grow.

a moment of you is enough for me. for me to love you.

u make me love you but you are running away.

thank you. gdbye.

nothing will change as long as there is a line of trust.

gdbye is the strongest yet weakest word.

gdbye is the most easiest word yet the most forbidden word.

where is our love leading?

happily, to nowhere. yes. to nowhere.

hope you will find your happiness.

im praying hard.

~~eventhou i wish im your happiness.~~

2010-02-10T11:12:00.001+08:00

i wonder who gonna drive an ambulance while drunk. hmm.

in faizal's & syawal's ambulance.

& who ever gonna smoke in ambulance??????

see, jam.!!!! tats wat makes all my transfer cases

late. hmmpff!

caught! hahaha! playing psp while working. haha!

lol. tis is actually otw back to fetch patient @ NUH.

tmr will b my last day to b transfer nurse *pray hard*

my second week was great-not-so-great. haix.

my days was all spend wit the HOPE ambulance teams.

even wit one of their boss. which is TJ.

wen to eat wit them too. everything wit them.

even my chalet, they are coming. see. too close

wit them. they are like part of my family. :)

i couldnt believe i feel in love wit you. y you?

now, i hate myself for a reason.

for loving you.

u love attention while i

love working. just bcoz i couldnt meet up wit you, you says

tat im not looking forward for the relationship.

LOVE = NEGATIVE THINKING = HEARTBREAKING

FORGET IT MAN!

i love you. i do. u couldnt see it. cox u didnt even wanna open

ur heart n listen to mine. all u did is follow the flow. & yst,

u jux realise tat u are losing me.yeap, you are losing me.

you express your love to me. you too love me. but are we

gaining anithing.? indeed, we are drifting apart. you

used to ask me

" do u still need me and do i still gotta space in ur heart? "

i should haf said NO. but i didnt, sadly.

everithing wen wrong.

everithing wen blank.

2010-02-07T16:11:00.004+08:00

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Imy

shakillah says:
hey adi :)
myt.

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Hmmm bile mau ketemu deh lo
Haha

im proud to say, we are back to b friends again.

he forgive me. tats the most impt thing. thank you.

but i hope, we are just friends. lets control the feelings

aite. C:

2010-02-06T21:24:00.005+08:00

okie. been and back from tamp. fetch my anak sdare.

kellisha fitrahani. hmm. we all miss her. tmr

her mum will b coming here to see her dearest

daughter. :D

see the pic above?? too much of our free time at work.

we help each other wit trimming the eyebrows. haha!

wat to do.

2010-02-05T18:23:00.004+08:00

hi! meet my boifren. ^^ haha!

cute kn? mcm katak. he is only 10mnths n he can walk olreadi.

weeewwwwwiiiiiittttt! syg bdk katak nie. haha!

today im good mood to update. haha! for today,

i didnt take any transfer case coz im lack of time.

remember i told u bout my piercing(smiley) ????

a patient hit my mouth n it hits my smiley. bleed a lil

bit only. there. the pic. haha.

okie people. tis is wat we call random post. haha!

& to tat someone, u wanna know whr i bought tis gelangs

ryte? y dont you just tag me instead of writting it in ur

blog? haiyo. im not tat bad to hide it from u darla.

okie. too much for today.

2010-02-04T18:36:00.004+08:00

yst was sux. but today was wonderful!!!

yey! hahahaha. after wat happen yst, bdk ambulance

scolded her n yelled at her. they are so pissed off wit her

for making me wait. see. im so pampered. haha!

den they gila. buy for me 6pcs chicken nugget,

double cheese burger, mcCHICKEN, pepsi, soya milk,

16 jempot-jempot n large fries. they buy for me all

tis jus to say sorrrie...... OMG! so brought it hm

n share it wit my sibblings.

if u think im ugly, tats bcoz i dont over make-up myself.

if u think im pretty, tats bcoz i haf a gorgeous mum. :)

inheri-tion. haha!

wahh. i soo happy.

like always, happiness is my daily dosage.

2010-02-03T18:12:00.005+08:00

today.

sux. fark up. mood swing. bad mood. high bld pressure.

last minit changes. unfair. fear. forgotfull. lastly,

TEARS.!

today is totally not the day. sigh. i overslept.

i came late for work. send patient to eye clinic.

waited till 1130 am. den to n fro westpoint n nuh

to fetch patient. today ambulance guys are

faizal, syawal, wong n john. kaki gerek.

but me faizal n syawal was so sleepy. zzzz!

i almost lost myself into ~~you~~. but you betray me.

saying you are single. but you aint. thank you.

i think im independent enough. i dont nid a guy

to make me happy. all i nid is myself.

n i miss this two bdk gemok. haiss. :'(

& IM IN LOVE WIT, again,

MYSELF. :D

& i cant b bothered to those who

love me. you know, love is not

the thang for me. :X

2010-02-01T19:35:00.003+08:00

today i waste my fvcking 4hrs at Radiotherapy

wit one confuse man or shall i say apek.

its my turn to b transfer nurse. so haf to send back tat

apek. nk layankn die punye confuse bole naik darah seii.

tapy wat to do. die dh mmg mcm tu.

remember i told u tat i lose my slipper????? *kening naik2*

i called up salmah n greon just to teman me go marina

n buy the same slipper. hahahaha! gosh~ i really gonna kip

the slipper in a safety box. so ppl wont steal it again.

lately, i wasnt able to update or online. mane ke tidak. asyik

ngan bdk pondok jek. by the time i reach hm, im dead tired.

n to dalila. he never change. i know. im sorry if he did

tis to you. n i hope, u will still b my dalila. olryte? cheer up.

n to you agil, u hate me nagging at you.

u hate me shouting at you. you jolly well know tat

i hate fights between family. and you jolly well

knows that i hate wen guys hurt a gals heart.

n you know, i hate it wen you are like tis.

ive been standing up for you. saying against all

the hate-tagers. n is tis how u pay back to UR OWN SISTER?

ive been saying tat u will change. n is tis how U TREAT

UR SISTER WHO HAS A BEEN TRUSTING U?

ive always been holding ur back. from mama from

abg from everione. dont talk to me. till u got ur own

head to think. ur own brain to work things out properly.

big guy dont choose two gals.

i hate you for wat u have done.

i lose my trust in you.

n sadly,

u never change. never.

2010-01-29T19:46:00.002+08:00

walk in to brother's room.

agil: its daaaaallliiiiilaaaaaaa. bkn daaaallliiiillllllaaaHHHHHHH.

me: oh,salah lagik. -_-"

bace jgak blog kakak kau. hahaha! i just wanna let all of you

know i gotta

MOST IRRITATING BROTHER.

his fav dialog. :kak ila, top up kn ppd bsok k.

now, y not i open a top up ppd shop?? good idea huh? hahaha.

i know agil will read tis!! haha! booo~

D A L I L A :D

now,tats better. correct spelling. haha! okie. someone pls

smack me. i cant even spell a name. haha. u wanna mit me?

haha. can sure. my family will b celebrating Chinese New Year.

do come down aite. sorrie. no invitation card. haha.

&&& see, i told you. nothing will happen between you n agil.

& to tat Pb at ur tagboard,

oh pls, just bcos they fyte for ONCE, u say my

bro is useless. oh greatness. which rship goes

long wit no fytes? yes, he is useless for neglecting

dalila. but he knows tat tats a bad thing to do.

n he pay for wat he did. so pls, stop being a

stalker. u know. all tis hate-tagers, they are like stalkers.

reading n following everithing. scary seii. or mayb

they haf tis prolonged disease or sickness called

dementia. they forgot who they are or even cant see themself

in sense of attitude.

im off again. n today got to go back to workplc.

its siti's n ziana's last day at work. they will b transfered

to Alexandra hosp. haix. gonna miss them. so our

doctor blanja pizza. he ordered 10 boxes of pizza.

bnk la kan. haha.

& ONE FVCKER STOLE MY REEF SLIPPER.

alamak. budget sgt ke kau smpi nk curi slipper aku.

aku tawu la slipper ni mahal. yela2. ambek la.

aku pon tk kesah. psl aku dh belik slipper reef lgik

satu. hahaha! boo~ come-come. lai. curi la.

2010-01-28T00:00:00.001+08:00

D A L I L A H. :D

oh. its dalila. haha! sembarang jek aku tukar name anak org.

haha. sorry aite :) btw, dont b dissapointed aite. i will

kick his ass if he do any wrong. chey~ buat sementare

waktu aku jdik minah. huahuahua! Well, if tats for the better,

y not ryte? haha. but im glad tat dalila has kening.

pls dont botak kn ur kening k? i just hate ppl who

draw kening. it shows how ~~ugly~~ tat person is till

she nids to draw to beautify herself. sorry. im

just telling you wat i felt. no offence.

nari keluar dgn die. for like again -_-".

siap. mrt. outram. mitup. train. vivo. slipper reef. movie.

toothfairy. laugh. kiss. hug. lepak. train. separate. wairy.

exchange number. bubble tea. walk. home. bath. otf hady.

miss him :'C . msn. MNZ. chucky. zimah. still waiting for

hady. N NOW, BLOGGING.

2010-01-27T02:25:00.002+08:00

Im still awake at tis hour. cant realli sleep thou.

lotsa n lotsa of things tat is/were/are/was still in my mind.

:'(

im sorry to those im angry at. didnt reali thinking at tat

point of time. so sorry. to STICH plsplspls dont fyte

wit her. safe your 7 mnths of rship. olryte? trust me.

everithing gonna b fine. :D

& to you agil. my younger brother. wats wrong wit you?

wat did i tell u wen u are in relationship? wat did u

promise me? y are you always eating up your

own promises. i know u wan ur way.

& delila, you MUST know agil is always MIA.

even to his family. he makes everione worried sick for

him. mayb tats how he seek attention. no worries.

i try to talk to him. he always listen to me more

then anione else. eventhou sometimes he is against it.

but he knows i always wans the best for him.

& one more thing, if u wan a young relationship,

always b prepare for the worse. for you to smile,

u nid some tears to it. just stay strong k dear?

sometimes, i do find relationship is the barrier

to everithing. to family, to friends n even to ur own health.

how strong can it hold if you can even find a good base.

well, tat is why im still single till now.

i cant even find a guy who can wish me a proper nite.

:'(

2010-01-26T22:01:00.002+08:00

its her birthday!!

yg ke 23 (reverse it).

hmm. came to her house arnd evening.

so had our home-made steamboat.

they INCLUDING MY NENEK drink some wine n beer.

while waiting for munzir to come. plan here n there.

end up wanna club.

took some photos. all uploaded in facebook. haf a look aite.

both at busu house n at the club.

reach hm bout 5 am. talk2 wit sis n aunt. den sleep

like a pig till 10am. mkn mcd. den sleep den proceed

to work. NITE SHIFT!!!!

actually, im glad tat i got a

supportive family.

thank you so much tat i was

born to tis

family.

2010-01-25T05:18:00.003+08:00

lets just say, today is the worse day of my life!

firstly, spend money on stupid things. faRK yOU!

should b faRK mE . haha. totally angry sia.

secondly, a dementia patient of mine hit my mouth!

n my smiley almost tercabot. wei~ aku simpan simley ni

lame sia. naseb baek tk koyak. den ade

part of my mouth terkene gigi den koyak abit.

abis smue mulot aku

darah. wash up den still got abit of blood.

i will show u the pic later.

thirdly, i haf not done anything for my business!

D E A D M E A T!

k bye. i wanna settle

my things first.

u wanna noe y?

coz im at work.

haha!

ooh yah, before i forgot.

i swear i gonna kill anyone who

talks bout rship to me.

falling in love is not the most

wanted list in my life.

2010-01-20T19:37:00.003+08:00

things are getting worse between us.. you cant expect tat.

wat else me.

u change or you lose me.

easy choice. difficult reactions.

n ppl were like asking me. WHERE IS ALL UR TINDIK.?

n all i could ans IM CHANGING.

n replies tat i got. TK SYG KE TINDIK KAU?

n all i could say BENDE JAHAT BUAT APE SYG.

n kip on asking me Y NOT KIP TILL U GET MARRIED.

n guess i shall say ISNT TAT MY PROBLEM.?

n again they says YOUR PIERCING IS ONE OF A KIND. UNIQUE.

n i smile saying I START PIERCING YEARS BACK. SHALL I B THE

SAME AS NOWADAYS KIDDY. ?? memalukan!

the past wont repeat. no more piercing*insyallah*

im left wit smiley. its been a year +++ since i got tis

smiley. but now den ppl started to haf it. slow ppl.

see my new pic. see how diff i am. haha!

tkde tindik. well, basically. im happy.

wat else can define my life??

JUST TAT I GIF UP ON YOU NAME GUYS.

see you guys around. :D

2010-01-11T23:06:00.003+08:00

things haf been great. :D took three days annual leave.

which is fri sat n sun. fri stayed hm. boring~ den i go popular

buy story book. hahaha! sat wen out for a while. den reach

hm arnd 12am. sun which is today, i apply P-T agency nurse.

hehe. pantat aku gantal kn. hehe. i wanna earn lotsa

money n njoy. hehe. wen wit salmah. yg lain buih~~~!!!

life aku spent tyme ngn si police tu jek. tapy at nite jek. :(

die slalu keje n prac dikir tyme pagy or ptg. n our rship

getting better :D tats enough to put away my stress.

as long as i noe n trust tat there is still love,

i wont gif up. :D

but for now. he dont exist for me. :(

2010-01-06T14:39:00.006+08:00

shakillah says:

erm. i noe u r not online. hmm. i juz wanna say sorrie to u. i noe all along wen we r friends, ive been neglecting u. u always take the effort to chat wit me, ask me out n even ask for my n0. but all i did was say 'no'. i noe im bad. i noe u r angry at me. im so sorry. :'( i hope u wont b mad at me. n i will always remember u. dont u ever dare think tat i dh sombong atau lupe u. okie?? u tc aite.
btw, u always says 'imy' to me. now its my turn to say it. imy adi :D

*care xXhArAdAXx said (4:35 AM):
yes i don you know that i like you actually
i dont give up
*care xXhArAdAXx said (4:36 AM):
you the one who nak ilang kan diri
nvm la you will find a guy for your self perhaps im not your right guy
and now i give up already
nice knwing you
:(

shakillah said (4:54 PM):
y didnt u tell me u like me? y now den u tell me everithing? its nice noeing u too. especially wen we fyte. kinda miss tat. :(

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Hmmm
Tak layan me :( ok nvm

shakillah says:
i tot u dont wan to tok to me
:(

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Ok than
Hmmm

shakillah says:
asl ni?

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Nuthing hmmm

shakillah says:
how r u?

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Hmmm bye

shakillah says:
okie
bye

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Ok la seems u wanna action and all like ni point hanky pengky lagi tc I'm deleting u from msn err -_-'

shakillah says:
no. u see. im trying hard not to make us fall apart again. but u seems to only reply 'hmm, okie, bye'

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Fall apart I here like syok sendiri u like buat bodo with me sudah la I have enought with this okok bye err -_-'

shakillah says:
how shall i noe everithing?? u didnt even a single thing to me.
okie. since u insist, even wen i go to the extend of being a muke tembok saying sorry to u. u still says gdbye.
hope u njoy ur life.
which i noe u did. bye

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
What u talking? What u mean by u didn't even a single thing to you?

shakillah says:
oh. i mean u didnt even tell me a sgl thing.

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Actually I like u shakillah but then u like don't giv a damn on me like buat bodo and all ok seems u insist me than ok no comment

shakillah says:
i still dont understand y u didnt tell me?
is it so hard?

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Yes ao hard for mw after for ao long tyme until I kept this

shakillah says:
u r att ryte now?

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
No!
I ur attch :(

shakillah says:
huh? I ur attch????? wats tat?

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
I'm saying no I'm not attch and I know u did attch err :(

shakillah says:
huh? okie. u got the wrong info. -_-

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Than?

shakillah says:
ive been sgl. hmm. nvm~

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Hmmm I actually got a crush on ya seems long2 tyme ago I got that fear like I clap in one hand and stuff that's why I don't let u know I thought of like we meet like follow the flow with it but I can see u like bolayan me that's why I wanna end everything coz I'm giving up it's to long to kept this feeling actually err :(

shakillah says:
n the reason y im like tis, is bcoz its kinda hurting wen i saw lots of gals commented on you. n you did noe alot of gals. i noe its lame. but just try standing in my shoe. you jus dont realise tis small little things. n bcoz of tis small thing, i tend to hurt myself.

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Hurt ur self what for?!
We not event yet together u see

shakillah says:
see. u wont noe.
i got my own feeling. how u wanna understand?

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Shakillah would u give me a chance like let us close even more?

shakillah says:
just promise me, tis time round, we go wit the flow. no more fytes.

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Do you like giving us a chance to meet up and stuff?no at all mcm Maner u nak tau peregai I and stuff

shakillah says:

haha. but i dont wear like wat i use to wear. haha. okie,tis is lame -_- i hope u dont mind......

*care xXhArAdAXx says:
Ok I will promise will u promise u don't ignore me again and don't be jelous?

:(
Wear like how?

the rest of the conversation is *private*. hehe. see, there is a lot of

bye(s) but we still chatting. im giving him the chance :D

n i hope i wont b hurt again tis tyme *cross finger*

tgk yg aku bold kn. swit kn die? haha.

u noe, sumtymes wen it hurt so much, tat is the tyme

wen u realise you are growing up n understanding

the situation. :D

njoy ur days peeps :D

2010-01-06T12:25:00.004+08:00

wahh, tis few days iive been updating blog. wahh~

haha. bored punye psl la nie. early morning uncle fauzi

dh dtg umah. biase la. asyik nk ketok duet mak aku jek.

abih dtg sini slalu dpt mkn free. haix. kinda hate it

actualli.

check agil school result straight after i bath. he got

Institute of Tech. Education Nitec Electronics @ YISHUN.

hmm. accept the offer w/o asking him first. haha. too bad~

yst had a talk wit him.

agil: kak ila, bile nk belik kn hp n beg duet.

aku: tk tawu.

agil: ni la janji keling.

aku: kau pon same. janji nk blajar btol2. end up flung all ur subjects.

den he kip quite. tats the reason i dont wan to buy for him.

if he can kip to his promise,tats mean i also will. but now, he

did not. im being fair. n yahh, better last long wit ur gal

k bodo. tkmo buat hal.

one thing about agil, he wont speak back to me. coz

he noes, i will always b there for him. unlike other kids.

they will always go against their sister.

tats a good point of him. i understand tat he hates

studying. he loves working. but spore w/o cert,whr

can u go. unless u haf a good recommendation.

to shukriyah,

im still watching naruto. waiting for

NARUTO SHIPPUDEN 142. lmbt sei nk kluar.

haha. saying bout naruto, ive moved on. hehe.

mit my new bf.

CHOJI. cool kan die. hansom seii. haha.

woke up tis morning ive received 7 miss call. okie. -__-

confirm nnt aku kene pekik. abg police call!!!!!

haha. miss call aku smpi 4 kali. ni kali confirm aku kene mara

seii. die penat2 alek dari dikir barat, abih aku tk layan

die. haha. another 3 miss call is from munzir, azrul

n acap. haha. sorry2. dh tido la.

2010-01-05T17:11:00.002+08:00

errr.. okie. im bored. so im here to update. haha!

my post nite. ward aku mcm pasar mlm sei. patient smue nyanyok.

den kip on talking to themselves. haha!

ive planned JR0701D outing. u noe, im so proud of

nana(iliyana). she is the most supporting friend. she is

the only friend tat is so concern. the rest was like

'oh, okie. jux update me.' but like didi n ifah n emma, they r

also supporting. i hope tis plan realli works. :D kn nana???

if only she reads my blog, i juz wanna tell her im glad tats

she is supportive. imy babe. if u all wonder who is she.

she is like our big sister in my class. all of us will approach

her if we face ani problems. see. she very good u noe.

as a sister as well as a friend.

abg police aku dh pegy practice dikir barat die. nmpk gaya

aku bosan la kat rumah. die suroh aku tunggu die balek.

bnk cantek~! haha! mesti angkat call die. klau tk nnt

die bingit lgik. hmmppf! idiot.

k lah. aku dh tawu nk buat ape skrang.

ANIME!!!!

tgk anime lgik best. k bye!

2010-01-03T01:29:00.000+08:00

countdown was 50-50 fun. wen out wit my own family members.

the reasons y i didnt or to b perfect, not to follow the offers made by

few of my friends is bcoz

1. to b wit friends, i cant imagine my safety.

u noe, a mat saleh grab my hip n eventually asked for my n0.

n as usual, im not interested. mat saleh came here is only for

SEX. so my aunt says to him 'my niece is not interested in

u.' so we wen in front of a pub*im not telling whr..* he still

follows n kip on looking at me. n my aunt straight wen to him again

' i said my niece is not interested in u. so stop looking at her'

tat is as much as my aunt gif him a slap on his face n he walk

off. see, if im wit my friend, can i 100% sure i will b save.?

2. i wen after work = fatigue

yeap. straight after work i wen to mit them. im dead

tired. for friends, they dont understand. all they wan

is their own fun.

3. i love my fam more den them.

which means i priorities them :D im a goody good gal.

we wen to three places in total. cool huh? haha.

den last stop was at newton. kite nie perot cpt lapar.

so wen there. my aunt n sis minom. me tk. maklomla.

i dont smoke nor drink. tk cool uhk. haha. den

suddenly, while eating, a table bside us, someone

i mean 2 person came to sit. hansom giler. cine tapy

muke mcm mat saleh. macam mix gitu. makcik2 n kakak

aku pon ckp hansom. den org kedai tu

asyik pelok2 die jek. ishk! end up die mintak n0 aku. tros

aku terdiam sia.

haha! skrang tgh msg2 ngn die. hehe. cute tau die. haha!

k lah. i gtg. more pix at fb. thank u.

2010-01-01T14:40:00.006+08:00

tired. fatigue. happy. cam-whore. work. bitch.

*sibok bercerita* haha.

oh yahh,

happy new year suckers.

njoy ur upcoming event.

dont ever ever ever got into trouble.

listen to mama okie.

u haf ur new cita2.

so make it happen aite buddy.

btw, ive planned a mit up for JR0701D.

hopefully it will work out. :D

ive received a good response so far. hehe.

*kening naik2*

i miss my abg police. haiz :'(

2009-12-31T00:58:00.004+08:00

i cant sleep. tk tawu knape. mayb tkde mood nk tido.

tido pon nk ade mood ehk? haha. k diam.

aku punye abg polis working. so tknk disturb. well, imy.

bile aku tk angkat kau nye call, tawu pon nk binigt. haha!

biol. haha. love kau la syg. oops. haha. yst totally no mood.

dont ask me y. im juz dissapointed. lucky emma n efah

was there to talk to me :D idiots.~

oh yahh. wen to umah nenek awhile. ingat kn nk jumpe

kak ina. but she's not in. so play arnd wit bby sontol royo.

haha. notty ehk dh besar. aunty gigit aru tawu.

the reason y

im still coping

is bcoz

u kip coming.

n i hate it.

pls, go away.

today i'll b hardworking to update.

tmr. all quiet. hmmpff! always like tis.

smack me.

fiko, tmr cannot jumpe. aku shift ptg. thank you.

haha. pnat lerr.

today eve of new year. gosh~

brain-oh-brain. pls think of stg.

out or stay at hm.??

stay at hm or out??

anione?? pls.. .. ... ....

ade org giler ajak aku countdown kat bangkok

ngn kwn2 die. haha. tk bole la u. i keje. haha! sorrie.

nx tyme k. LANGKAWI!! okie u?

jgn nk sibok nk tawu sape.

bye.

2009-12-30T21:52:00.004+08:00

just to let all of u noe, to the KPOS,

im always happy. always. no one noes me better den i do.

so dont calculate me. dont assume me. dont even pretend u knew me.

thank you. :D did i ask for more???

i miss being myself.

new year pls bring me new smile.

to my best gal,

i know u will read my blog. coz u always did.

today, i cried bcoz of u.

but im still happy. coz u are happy. like i always

want u to b.

thank you. for ur friendship.

i still love u, dear macho.

2009-12-29T22:30:00.003+08:00

ive put up my tagboard. dont dirty it okie?

2010 coming. no plan. hancor sia! haha. okie.

shall i jus rot at hm?

shall i go club?

shall i sleep. better still. haha.

tats wat pig loves to do :D

btw, aku single. so i haf the ryte to cntct anione.

dont intefere. see you arnd.

bye.

2009-12-24T18:25:00.003+08:00

it was kellie's bdae yesterday. hehe. had fun

n laughter. more pics at fb.

thank you.

im missng someone :D

yes. him. i miss him. haha! idiot kau. on the fone wit him

today from 3am till 630am. tk tawu nk tido. kip on disturbing me!

tk bole tido kacau i tido. pandai kn bdk nie. btw, die sgl.

ani ladies?? haha. tapy die nk nurse jek. aku plak nk polis jek.

haha. he is a policemen actualli. :D die dh go chalet kat

pasir ris. so no talking wit him today.

btw,i've broke up wit suki due to a reason.

its not bcoz we cant stay long. its bcoz of stg

else. a veri big problem. so we choose to haf

a break up first. no hates no sad no nothing :D